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I remember what I promised, 'Till death do us part'. However, years later I've changed. I can't let you go then.
Even when we no longer exist, In the ways we know now. Our ashes will be mixed. Bones tangled, intertwined.
There is no higher power, That could separate us. In the ways it matters, I'll be there. We'll find eachother again.
#writerscreed#spilled ink#dark academia#spilled poetry#love notes to no one#original poem#my poetry#original poetry#poetry#poets on tumblr#writers and poets#poem#my poem#love#love poem#poetic#writers on tumblr#writeblr#writing#just a really quick 10 minute poem#not great#but I haven't written in ages#and I want to try writing some longer works - like a short story or smth#so i figured i better get back in practice with what i know
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I like von lycaon but i also like yanderes so here are my thoughts on yan?VonLycaon
Imagine that you work for a company that often collaborates or is close with Victoria Housekeeping Co. and thats how you both met.
Lycaon enjoys your company and admires your work ethics, you're punctual, respectful and very social towards his co-workers. He takes notes on the way you interact with his fellow co-workers, especially how you go the extra mile to bond with the anxious Corin.
Im almost so certain that Lycaon says the most romantic things to you without him even knowing. Have you heard his voice lines??? "Praise me for my loyalty" and "my only desire is to see my Master's wish fulfilled". He would offer you services with discounts specially reserved just for you. Need someone to clean your home? Take care of your pet while you're off-station? Need a hand in meal prepping ? Give him a call!
Lycaon would try to appeal to your gaze physically and emotionally. If you allow him to keep doing favours for you, you'd start to associate him with positivity. Your houseplant? Oh yeah, he recently revived it didn't he! He helped you carry your bags when you went shopping, how about we take a break and immortalise the moment with that photo booth? He never shows it on his face but Lycaon is over the moon about it inside.
Eventually your home will have his scent mixed in it but he wants something physical as a reminder. Lycaon would contact Rina, another member of Victoria Housekeeping to make a doll based on his likeness and shove a few of his fur in the stuffing.
#took me months to get this thing out the WIP#should've done it ages ago im sorry#btw i don't think he steal your underwear (used or not)#man still has morals and work ethics#von lycaon x reader#zzz x reader#yandere von lycaon#i haven't written in years so it's so choppy
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coworker ranpo knows exactly how you feel about him even though you try your best to hide it from him and the ada
coworker ranpo constantly shows of in front of you, prideful of his intelligence and his newest achievements
coworker ranpo wants your attention all the time.
coworker ranpo who's too lazy to do any paperwork so he spends his time talking to you instead. you need to focus on your work but you can't bring yourself to stop talking to ranpo, especially when he initiates the conversations
coworker ranpo likes bringing you along to his cases so he can show off to you
coworker ranpo who always knows when you've had a bad day, instead of trying to cheer you up with words he'll offer to share his snacks with you. everybody who overheard in the office immediately stopped what they were doing, shocked and in disbelief, when they heard his offer
coworker ranpo who will seriously craves kissing your lips after you've eaten something sweet. that lollipop you were just sucking was one of favourites and he can't find any others in his snack pile, he's sure you'd make it even sweeter.
coworker ranpo rests his head on your shoulder while he sleeps. you don't know if he's really asleep or if it's just a front to not do any paperwork
coworker ranpo misses you when you suddenly don't turn up to work for a couple of days
coworker ranpo who does like teasing you and messing with you, whenever you make mistakes or you don't know something he'll be there but his comments never seem harsh when directed at you.
coworker ranpo who likes getting a reaction out of you every time he stands too close to you or praises you. he likes watching a shiver run down your spine and a bashful smile on your face which you try and hide it by looking away.
coworker ranpo will invite himself to places you're going and tag along. "you're going shopping? let's go now because i need more snacks."
coworker ranpo doesn't seem that bothered when he starts getting your hopes up that feelings might be mutual. that just means you try to find ways to spend even more time with him than usual and he enjoys your company
coworker ranpo thinks you're smart enough to realise they're not mutual and that hope you have is only fleeting
coworker ranpo has a sweet spot for you
coworker ranpo has no intention of changing the current dynamic you share. you're his favourite coworker.
#i love this man but god run away asdfghbjhv. i haven't written for ranpo in ages and he's kind of a meanie in this :'(#ranpo edogawa#ranpo x reader#bsd x reader#ranpo hcs#bsd ranpo#ranpo#♡ mine / writing#ranpo bsd#♡ ranpo#bungou stray dogs ranpo#ranpo edogawa x reader#ranpo edogawa hcs#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs x reader#bungou stray dogs x reader#ranpo x you#bsd headcanons#i dont know if this classes as angst so i'm going to leave it untagged with angst for now
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I did a short fic for the sif is out au! Juust to get a feel for writing the characters, hope you enjoy :D
#siffrin? more like sif is out au#isat#I haven't written in a month which isn't that much but it feels like ages so this is my unrusting one shot
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The early bird and all that-
Tim Drake x Afab. Reader
18+ Content (MDI)
Extra: Established relationship, Unprotected morning sex,
Tim's alarm goes off hours earlier than when he should be up. His shuffling to turn it off succeeds in pulling you from your sleep. Dawn comes in through the window as he's trying to get comfortable, eager to go back to sleep.
But you're a bit more conscious now, feeling how his warm skin glides against yours. Your body is still sensitive from last night, and your inner thighs are still slick from being too lazy for a proper cleanup. That's when you feel it. It's slow, like molasses spreading across your lower belly. A soft heat that causes your hips to shift, your exhales coming out just a tad deeper.
You're nuzzling against him when you hear him exhale a laugh. His rough palms run down your bare back sending tingles down your spine. Your hands follow suit, fingers grazing his cheek as you pull him down for a kiss. It's slow, absolutely no haste on his side. But you need him, as rubbing your slick thighs together isn't settling the growing ache. Crying out his name against his lips only causes him to cruelly pull back from your lips.
“Shh it's okay baby I've got what you need right here~”
You eagerly lift your left leg over his, allowing him to slot between them. And Tim is swift in batting your hands away as you try to reach for his dick to speed things up. He's chuckling again at your enthusiasm. And, the sound has you looking back up at him as opposed to the growing mess between you two. His warm gaze traces your features, a loving smile on his face. You return it, and your palm finds its way back to his face. Your thumb caressing his cheek.
His next kiss comes with a grin, and you jolt further into him when you feel the head of his cock press against your clit. You're breathing heavily into each other's mouths as he drags the length of it down your slippery cunt. The wet slide is audible when he parts your folds to tease your entrance.
“Stop playing.” You huff, pushing your hips forwards to get him to finally push inside you.
“Always so impatient.” He groans, just as the tip just manages to catch. His lips catch yours in another kiss, swallowing the breathy moan you let out as he gives you all of him. He's pulling his face back to see your eyelashes flutter, a smug grin on his face as he drags out slowly only to smoothly glide back in. “I already told you that I'd give you what you need.”
#Timmy drake ugh 😖#uh random bullshit go!#God I haven't written anything in ages#tim drake x reader#tim drake smut
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Loki trying to understand the current drama between your stuffed animals:
*still doesn't understand but nods his head anyway* "Yeah, that makes sense, little one..."
#it's a crime that i haven't written for him in ages#little!reader#little reader#daddy!loki x little!reader#daddy!loki laufeyson#daddy!loki#age regression
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Happy Anniversary Ducktales 2017 fandom **Drops these memes and disappears for another year***
Everytime Mark steals shit from gryo
Yeahhh
#ducktales meme#ducktales2017#dt17#dt 2017#ducktales17#lauchpad mcquack#darkwing duck#drake mallard#gyro gearloose#mark beaks#lena de spell#webby vanderquack#lena sabrewing#ducktales#drakepad#ducktalesanniversary2023#i haven't drawn or written in ages
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joker joker 😣🙏 please pleaseee
a/n: SKDNJS I'M FINALLY FREE TO ANSWER MY ASKS 😭 allow me to use this ask to insert some random headcanons of our favorite pookie bear while I work on the other joker fics I got for you 🤩 these are so bad im so sorry
There is something about the Joker that gives "DARRRRRLLINNGGGGG GUESS WHO JUST ESCAPED THE PSYCCHHHH WARDDD"
He would say this to Batman after escaping Arkham for the millionth time
Kicks feet and giggles
Someone please sedate me
I know damn well they had to put a muzzle on this man in Arkham because he bit someone for talking bad about Batman
It was Killer Croc 💀
I think this man loves sprinkles for some reason -- specifically rainbow sprinkles
Like he needs it on his ice cream or else he won't eat it
Like he would rob a store at gunpoint for rainbow sprinkles
And then go, “Oh nooo, I hope a big, bad, Bat doesn’t come and stop me” type shit 😭
Speaking of ice cream, I wholeheartedly believe Joker is lactose intolerant
Does he care?
Not in the slightest
He is guzzling milk, cheese, and ice cream at all times
He went to extensive lengths to smuggle in a picture of Batman into his cell in Arkham, but don’t ask him how he did it
You don't wanna know
He has a tattoo on his lower back a tramp stamp of the bat symbol
#i hope this was at least somewhat enjoyable 😭#i haven't written joker fics in AGES#kind of embarrassed of this 💀#🌻: lynn’s answers#🍯: freshly baked#🌙: midnight meadow runs#the joker#dc joker#batman x joker#joker x batman#joker headcanons#joker x reader#the joker x reader#dc comics#dc universe#batman#dc batman#batman comics
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feeling incoherent about the last chapter of svsss vol 3 and particularly the sex scene—i knew Vaguely what to expect and was prepared but i was not prepared for how deeply? it would move me emotionally? the grotesque and painful nature of it was so perfectly suited to the story, and i love what it got across how excruciating and uncomfortable it is to be Known intimately by another person and submit yourself to being loved by them.
it's ultimately necessary and freeing to shen qingqiu to give himself up to that Ordeal, and the forced & ultimately fatal nature of it is what allows him to actually let himself want it. and for luo binghe, even without an awareness of what he's doing, it's very humanizing to be accepted so fully and wholly for the most uncontrolled, desperate, lonely version of himself. the line "luo binghe seemed to have found some small sense of security" really struck me, the juxtaposition between the recklessness paired with that gentle realization of safety.
the terror & discomfort of the scene don't feel undesired somehow, either physically or on an emotional level, like they're just an inevitable part of what it means for bingqiu to finally embrace each other—that the love is so strong that it's worth weathering the sheer intensity of it & being consumed by it. it all just felt like a super fitting microcosm of bingqiu's relationship of absolutely clawing and clinging to each other, despite the pain and insecurities it forces them to grapple with, both together and within themselves. it's all very bare and pink and bald-faced! gahhh!!!!
#svsss#bingqiu#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#mxtx#i haven't written meta in ages so i am just word vomitting#i am fucked up!#zoe.txt
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Solavellan brainrot is actually terminal because why has this damned ship cured my month long writer's block
#seriously I haven't written this consistently since gortash week#also thank you fandom for not caring about gay solavellan i was a little nervous about it#I feel like one of those old greek heros who would gaze longingly at their muse#expect my muse is a sad elf who would benefit a great deal from couples counseling#solavellan#dragon age inquisition#solas dragon age#solas#inquistor lavellan#lavellan#fanfic
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I aimed to help you, in return you helped me too. (Reciprocity)
Sometimes you noticed when things were off with Hotch, it seemed like a glitch in his armor. Specifically moments when you would hand him his coffee if it was out of reach, as he would move around any table the team was working at; walking and thinking. Your fingers would brush and his grip would tighten. It happened when you would squeeze by to step into the elevator at the office in Quantico, arms brush by, and he would freeze. It was never a noticeable thing, if anything it was only retrospectively apparent in those moments.
When it became clear to you, that he was likely touch starved, was when you needed to hold on to his arm to balance yourself because you had a rock stuck in your shoe; you felt his bicep flex under your fingers and heard his breath hitch yet when you casted a glance up at him he was focused on the squad cars parked in front of the crime scene you were needed at, your interest was piqued then.
After that you began noticing he would never partake in the physical camaraderie; Emily would hug and lean on JJ, Morgan would ruffle Reid's hair as he passed the genius and throw an arm around Penelope when she joined them from her office, and Rossi would pat their backs in a paternal manner when he spoke to them. Sure he had Jack, to hug and cuddle with but you deemed it was different with a father-son relationship, he most likely thought he was giving his son what he needed. Aaron Hotchner is selfless like that, one of the reasons you love him as much as you do.
For a while it was all observations and your heightened sense to notice patterns, especially when it was regarding the man himself.
You were already having a bad day today, the team had made a miscalculated judgement based on the competency of the officers in the local precinct, who were also ridiculing you as well as the whole of the team, but because of the past days, past week, past month it hit you harder than the rest of your coworkers. It's not like you don't know you can go to them with your troubles, considering they're also your closest friends, it's just hard to paraphrase it in a way that would make sense. It felt like everyone was going through something this time of year, but with the jobs you all had, there wasn't much else to do but move onward.
So here you were, standing next to Hotch who was holding a piece of gauze to his forehead from where the unsub's submissive partner, the team had failed to profile, struck him from trying to save the offender you were after. Your eyes roamed his face, his arms, his chest cataloging to make sure he wasn't harmed anywhere else. When you heard the paramedic say he didn't need to go into the hospital you sighed in relief and took some of the fresh pieces of bandages that had been placed beside him and offered to take over cleaning and bandaging him up, making sure he was okay.
"Y/N, you know you don't have to do this." You heard Hotch mumble, seemingly far away but still alert enough to be aware of his surroundings, always on guard like that.
You nod and smile softly and you say, "I know, but it's making me feel better to take care of you right now." You finish cleaning off the blood from his face, gently press the ends of the butterfly bandage in place, "There, good as new." You let him know you were done, squeezing his arm for nonverbal punctuation.
You notice again that he tenses and avoids your gaze, "Hotch? Are you okay?"
"Aaron?"
Still no response, you think back to when he got injured and you don't remember his arm being hurt, so then you start to remember all the other times he's tensed up and you remember all the evidence that leads to him being touch starved, you remember the time you had to physically lean on him for support.
But by the time you're ready to do something about it, he's already assigning tasks to the team and then it's back to the hotel. You have to stop by the precinct to wrap up and grab your work and personal belongings when you overhear some officer make a snide comment about you and your team, it puts you on edge and in order not to make things more complicated you keep quiet and leave for the hotel.
You're quiet and they all notice it, they see how your shoulders are tense and that you're not joining in on the conversation, and you fail to hear the others making plans for dinner or to notice how Hotch is acutely observing you, trying to piece together why you're feeling the way you are in that moment.
His room is on the same floor as yours, across from yours even, so when you walk up to your room and just stand there, Hotch is watching you from the doorway of his. He takes a step forward leaving the door open, observing you.
"Y/N?" Aaron spoke softly as to not disturb the quietness of the hallway.
You turned around and looked at him, he seemed to be concerned. "Hmm?"
"Are you okay? You've been off since we got back to P.D." His voice tender, eyes shining under the lights.
"Oh, yeah. I'm fine, Hotch. Don't worry about me." You wave him off unconvincingly.
"You sure? Because you could come in and we can order room service for dinner, the others already left. You could consider it making things even for you patching me up." He vaguely gestures to his head.
That amuses you, so you smile and agree, crossing the way into his room, looking it over your eyes fall on the open windows on the opposite side, "You got a really nice view of the city, I just face the nextdoor building." You sigh dramatically, side eyeing him so he knows you're just teasing.
"Yeah, but I'm sure it's a great building." He retorts, "What would you like to eat?" holding the phone and menu card in his hand
"I think we've eaten enough around each other for you to know what my preferences are." You turn to face him, with a brow raised.
He huffs out a laugh and nods your way, afterwards placing your dinner order. It was a timid sense of normalcy, forgetting what the day trailed behind the two of you, your nerves come back so abruptly it it feels like a force knocked a breath out of you, and of course he notices it. He notices you.
"Y/N... I'm here if you want to talk about what happened. I noticed that you seemed a bit shaken up after we came back." He comments while moving to stand before you, the sincerity in his eyes gives you the illusion of making them brighter, and your heart clenches for him in affection.
"It's just... been a tough day, Hotch." You confess, keeping your eyes wide in order to combat the stinging behind them that you know means you'll start crying soon, "at first it was one of those days, you know? The kind that you just go through the motions, but ultimately you're alright in the end. And then I had to deal with those officers, they belittled me so much but I know with this job and being on this team, we have a duty to a sense of professionalism, so I kept my mouth shut, reserved. And then you-" You blinked and a rogue tear escaped, keeping your eyes closed for a moment while you let out a hushed, "I was so scared when I saw you get hit... It was hard to focus because I needed to make sure you were okay but we also had a job to do."
Your eyes begin to sting further with oncoming unshed tears, blinking rapidly to fight the sensation and giving up the fight to falsely show your resolve. With your view downcast you noticed one of Aaron's tells for when he was contemplating something; his thumb would move up and down his index and middle fingers. Up and down two times, switch, up and down two times more. Your mind begins to race, what could the eloquent Aaron Hotchner be contemplating saying or doing in front of, or to you.
Whatever it was you looked up and locked eyes with him, something unspoken passed and all you could do was nod your head minutely. Standing still, allowing him to make the steps to come to you, and to wrap his arms around you. One around your shoulders, and the other around your waist. You laid your head on his shoulder, face tucked between the crisp fabric of his shirt and the soft skin of his jawline. You took a deep breath, and wrapped your arms around him in return. Sliding your palms from his midsection, feeling the muscles ripple in their wake, to then connect your hands together in a lock.
"It's okay to asked to be touched, you know." He startles at the sound of your voice.
"I... It's been a while. Not since..." He trails off, knowing you would understand.
"I know, but it's okay, Aaron."
"How come you're the one comforting me now, I was supposed to be consoling you."
"Well, that's what partners do right? An equal give and take for what's needed," You inquire, "And don't think I didn't notice the subtle topic change, Mister."
"Oh we're partners, now?" He says playfully, giving your side a squeeze in further acknowledgement of what you said.
"Well yeah, I mean..." Trailing off when you feel a soft press of his lips to your temple, "Oh..." You breathe out.
"I was teasing you, Honey." He says with a chuckle. Clearing his throat he begins, "You know, I didn't think I'd ever get the chance to feel so much again, for someone, for you. Everyday I see you at the office in the bullpen, or in a precinct when we're away, or if I'm lucky enough to see you sleepy in hotels. Y/N, it feels like a second chance I'm not certain that I deserve."
You move to pull away, so you can look at him in his eyes when you say the words you heard unspoken, but his arms tightened around you, you smiled brightly.
"Aaron, love," You give him a squeeze for emphasis, he viscerally reacts to the term of endearment "I think we all deserve a second chance in life, in love."
After you're able to step back enough to press a kiss to his cheek, right where it meets the corner of his mouth. He gives you the privilege to see his blinding smile.
fyi: it's been a little while since i've written anything like at all but !!! i'm trying my best now to get to writing and post things because it's one of my favorite things to do ❤
this is for: @greg-montgomery @criminalskies @htchnr @ssahotchnerr
#aaron hotchner fluff#aaron hotchner#i haven't written anything in ages help me#oh this is also friends to lovers#clingy!aaron#touch starved aaron#for rome 🌱#for fay 🌸#for katie 🤍#for aurora 💫#post ep 100#aaron hotchner x reader#safe for gender neutral readers#aaron hotchner x gender neutral reader#or#aaron hotchner x female reader#or even#aaron hotchner x male reader
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[insert screaming keysmash]
(... don't ask me, idefk. i just love these extra bitches)
"This had to be some kinda...bizarre bit of karmic bullshit, or whatever, because it was so beyond unfair that the one time he accidentally texts Peter instead of Cora, he admits to wanting to swallow him down like he was the last glizzy at the Pump N Go. That.....was probably dirtier than it sounded in his head. Probably lucky he hadn't said that. Not the point. The point was? His luck fuckin blew."
#peter hale#stiles stilinski#steter#my text edit#telling a story in two images#don't even ask me about that blurb idefk#i haven't written in an age but? sky daddy insisted
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Will I edit this or add to it in the future? Who knows
#I haven't written really in a while but the brain juices are flowing#datv#datv spoilers#Rookanis#dragon age the veilguard#lucanis dellamorte#lucanis x rook#datv rook
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STWG prompt 31/1/24
prompt: visual prompt (two silhouettes on their bikes watching the sky at dusk, a shooting star goes across the screen)
pairing/character(s): steddie
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Eddie has to admit that when Steve pitched this date to him he almost said no.
Biking through some off-road trail for forty five minutes to get to a pretty field and have a picnic under the stars? That sounds like hot and sweaty torture to him. And not the good kind.
But as he'd been about to say that to Steve, he'd made the mistake of looking at his face, and Steve seemed so excited. His eyes were practically twinkling as he told Eddie it's the best place to watch the sunset for miles, and that no one's ever there in the evening because it's so out of the way, and that it's far enough away that the stars are clear at night. How could Eddie say no after that?
So here he is.
Hot and sweaty, as predicted, even an hour after they've arrived at their destination.
But they're sat opposite each other on a picnic blanket, cross-legged with their knees touching they're so close. And Steve is smiling at him like he's the best thing he's ever seen. And the horizon is pink as the last of the sun goes down, casting a glow over them both. And Eddie swears he just saw a shooting star go past behind Steve.
If he was with anyone else, he'd wish on that star to never have to do that much exercise again. Or to not have to do the bike-ride back at least.
But he can't find it in himself to hate the idea of this date anymore, exercise be damned. He hates to admit it.. but he's enjoying himself. He always enjoys time with Steve- if he's there, smiling at him like this? Even if he has to exercise in the process, he'll be there.
So instead of his usual wish, he closes his eyes (and ignores Steve questioning what he's doing) and wishes that every date with Steve feels like this, no matter how long they've been dating or how mundane the activity.
When he opens his eyes, Steve is still looking at him, a subtle smile on his face.
#steddie#steddie drable#steddie ficlet#steve harrington#eddie munson#i promise i'm still here and alive just haven't written properly in AGES#life keeps getting in the way#stwgdailyprompt#dailydrabble#mywriting
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little does she know (i'm a nasty dog)
#look. i haven't written in ages so the silly edits will have to do as my contribution to the fandom#dog coded bucky realness#clegan#masters of the air#mota#bucky egan#john egan#mine
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i've been trying to rationalize why clay terran's death hits me more than pretty much any other victim, even though the exact intricacies of his character are not the most plot relevant, and i think i finally got it. some of it's that he's the series' first new science freak in a while, yeah, but i think above that it's the emphasis on his ambition.
ace attorney does not like to kill real characters. it doesn't. referring to the main series for the rest of this post, we very rarely get to see a character for one section of one case before they die, with a few notable exceptions. as a result, because we don't get to know the characters very well, we as players are left to pick up the remnants based on the reactions of those still alive. ace attorney creates tragedy and emotional impact through the emotions of those who knew the victims. the victims' personas, therefore, are shaped by others' experiences with them: were they nice or mean, compassionate or abusive, nurturing or strict? while their relationships to others are crucial to their selves, they aren't everything about them.
clay is an astronaut. and unlike pretty much every victim in this series, that's not just his job, it's his life's purpose. the majority of clay's character is shaped through apollo's perception of him, sure, but what's also emphasized is his dream of being an astronaut. he wanted to be an astronaut since he was a child. he went to cosmos, became acquaintances and friends with the employees, surrounded himself with space. and he got the job. i know ace attorney ages can be taken with a grain of salt, but he was going to go into space at twenty-three, where the youngest astronaut in real life was twenty-five. any sizable gap in age below the norm tends to get lawyers deemed prodigies, excluding most themis students, so clay could probably be considered one as well. he was brilliant and remarkably hardworking and dedicated his entire life to reaching this goal, and he... didn't. he died with his dream ten steps in front of him.
when a character is an exception in one way, they tend to be in many, and they also tend to be defense attorneys, for some reason. the two victims with the most ambition at time of death, from my perspective, also have the most pre-death screen time: mia fey and dhurke sahdmadhi. their ambition may be on different scales, but they both died with tasks unfinished. mia had yet to reveal the corruption of redd white and the truth to dl-6, and dhurke had yet to restore stability to his country's legal system. they were both incredibly committed to fulfilling these goals and died while actively pursuing them.
the contrast between these two and clay is the individualism factor. dhurke wanted to see his revolution through, but he wanted a better future regardless of whether he was its leader or not. mia's connection was due to her familial involvement, but she also just wanted to uncover the truth behind redd white's obscurations and reduce corruption in the legal system. these goals are personal, but they aren't limited to them. they are goals that these two aspire to achieve, but they themselves don't need to be the ones to achieve them; in fact, they aren't. phoenix apprehends white, exposes manfred von karma, and discovers misty fey's disappearance for mia, while nahyuta and apollo work to reform khura'in's courts for dhurke. clay wanted to go to space. while a less noble goal than those i'm comparing him to, it's also more intrinsic to himself. he was supposed to be the one in space. there's no one to take over his dream because it's his alone. when he dies, that's it. it'll never be done. while his compassion definitely implies that he would be proud as long as sol starbuck touched the stars again, that isn't his dream. it's not the same as him doing it himself.
another similarity between mia and dhurke is that they are also the victims with the most post-death screen time. mia is channeled constantly through the first trilogy, to the point where she's almost as constant as any living character. dhurke lives for days, concealing his death while being channeled and not revealing the secret until almost the end of 6-5. as a result, these two get front row seats to their goals being fulfilled by their successors. mia's there to help phoenix take down white in 1-2, is certainly made aware of the results in 1-4, and even reunites with diego and re-defeats dahlia in 3-5. dhurke assists apollo leading up to the final court case, and his presence sticks with apollo as he develops his defense office.
clay does not get post-death screen time. he's only mentioned, like any other victim, after his death, and the large bulk of it is regarding the minutes before he's killed. not only is his dream unable to be fulfilled, but he wouldn't get the chance to see anything come of it, if that was even possible. he's not aura, staring out of a prison cell as part of her life's work flies off without her input. he's dead. no seeing the future, no willing on a successor to continue for him, no closure. dead and gone.
i'm not going to go crazy in depth right now, but, considering all major victims, the final truth of clay's death is done pretty poorly. as the successor to investigations, a duology that deals with international affairs in incredible detail, dual destinies is notably lacking. the organization behind the phantom isn't explored in the slightest; what was the point in making them a part of something bigger in the first place? there's no inciting event, no motive, not even a name, and from my point of view it just makes dual destinies feel unfinished, like there were plans that couldn't be made reality. there aren't any hints towards what the organization is doing, no legs to theorize on besides real life events, and it's not portrayed in a way that leaves it as a clever mystery. some international organization wants to sabotage the rocket launches for an unknown reason, so people die. that's all. clay dies due to reasons completely unknown to players, which is just so unsatisfying. not only does he not get closure, but we don't either. it makes me desperate for any new information to justify his death, to make his murder mean something, just like others who are integral to plot. this isn't entirely the point i was trying to make, but i think it's significant enough to mention. or maybe i just wanted to talk about it. not too sure.
clay terran suffers the awful fate of too much ambition and too little closure. this alone made his death have the greatest lasting impact on me. i'm not sure how it is for others, but the sadness of those left behind didn't usually trigger a large emotional reaction in me. however, the way clay's extraordinary dedication, implied intelligence, and nigh inevitable success were ripped from him right at the very end, with no possibility of a successor due to his own personal stake in the goal, made his death hit me through the heart like no other ace attorney victim. and also, just a little bit, because he's a new science freak.
#import em#ace attorney#aa5#clay terran#tempted to tag mia and dhurke bc i talk about them so much. i think i won't but i want to#long post#very long post my bad#fun fact i actually didn't like clay at all when i was actually playing dd#i was so pissed over the 3d models and the changed vas that i kinda hated everything#but i was also mad about how he was written (badly)#now he's my favorite though#i think it's pretty obvious that i'm obsessed with him based on the length of this alone#one essay down. many more to go#i haven't actually played any aa in ages so if any of this is super wrong lmk lol
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